The athlete who has never held her Olympic medal

Nearly 5,000 miles from her home, somewhere in Cameroon's capital, Madias Ngake suspects that in a drawer which is not hers, lies an Olympic medal which is.

It was awarded to her seven years late, after three weightlifters who finished above her at London 2012 were disqualified for doping offences. She has never held that medal, having never returned to her homeland in the 14 years since first landing in the UK.

Ngake, who is now based in Nottingham, had not planned to stay, but she had not anticipated needing to make a life-changing decision which she perceived to be her only chance of "safety and freedom" from persecution.

During those Games, her sexuality became known. With homosexuality illegal in Cameroon, punishable by imprisonment, genuine "fear" for her life drove the then 20-year-old to disappear from the athletes' village.

"After I finished competing in 2012, staying was not easy, but I had to take a decision for my safety, for my future, because I saw I did not have a future any more in Cameroon," Ngake says.

"I'm a lesbian, I love women and it's not allowed in Cameroon. I had to stay here for me to have a good future, good life and not hurt myself if I decide to have a girlfriend."

While she would secure sanctuary, of sorts, by avoiding a return to the African nation, her experiences over the following months were a far cry from the "glamourous" fortnight she had spent at the Olympics.

With no friends, no home and no money, the following months were largely spent on the streets.

Now, 14 years after London 2012, Ngake will make a remarkable return to a major multi-sport event when she competes at the Glasgow 2026 Commonwealth Games for her adopted nation, England.

"This moment means a lot to me," says the weightlifter, who won European bronze for Great Britain earlier this year. "For Team England to have given me this second opportunity, it is amazing."

Ngake was born in Douala, the largest city in Cameroon, around 200 miles to the west of the nation's capital Yaounde.

She is reluctant to reflect too much on that time, having distanced herself from thoughts of her homeland for more than a decade, but it is clear that childhood brought "challenges", many, many challenges. It is also clear that through sport, specifically weightlifting, she found a talent which could elevate her.

Ngake dreamed of not only personal success, but profound change. She aimed to help influence a shift in perceptions around female sport by showcasing the power of strong women in Cameroon.

At the Delhi 2010 Commonwealth Games, the then 18-year-old gave a glimpse of that potential. She placed fourth, achieving the same total as India's bronze medallist Laishram Devi but losing out on a podium place by virtue of weighing more than her rival.

Not that it was of immediate concern. Ngake left that contest on a stretcher, having passed out moments after a successful 121kg lift. It was a disappointing end to her Commonwealth debut, but there was still plenty of pride.

"Not just anybody can qualify for a Commonwealth Games," she smiles. "It means you're strong and, can I say, special?"

With resources limited, a situation not helped by the widely reported corruption scandals within several international federations in Cameroon, attending international competitions was extremely challenging.

As a result, she entered London 2012 with relatively low rank, which meant she was assigned to the B Final, with other athletes not considered to have realistic medal prospects.

However, she not only won the B Final, but lifted considerably more than many in the 'elite' division, securing an overall ranking of sixth. It was an achievement she considered to be "amazing" at the time, long before the results and placements were revised.

There was not time to celebrate that achievement, though. She needed to act quickly.

Exactly how the situation transpired is something, even 14 years on, Ngake is reluctant to discuss, but she is open about the impact of absconding.

"When I decided to stay, sometimes I would sleep on the bus, but when the bus stopped [for the night], I would sleep outside," she recalls with a shrug. "When I wanted to have a shower, I would maybe find a place outside, in public, so to change myself was not too easy."

That period lasted for around two months before she officially applied for asylum and was offered temporary accommodation while her case was reviewed.

Neither the Olympic Games nor any form of sport were in her mind. She was just focused on finding a way to make the UK her home.